You know what's really awesome? Being a senior.
You know what's hella stressful? Being a senior.
I knew that senior year was gonna be stressful, but I didn't think that I'd be so overwhelmed as I am now. I'm in the process of doing my applications and there is just so much to be done. I have to write all my essays (and I really hate writing), search and apply for as many scholarships as I can (turns out my expensive taste apply to clothes
and colleges, go figure), and request letters of recommendation, all while trying to keep my grades up, attempt to move up a ranking, possibly socialize and do typical senior stuff, try to post somewhat consistently on my blog, look for a job, learn how to drive, and you know, eat sleep and breathe.
I've been so over high school since sophomore year and i can not tell you home many hours i have spent researching various schools and programs, stalking tags on tumblr to get insight to student life, going to college information sessions, constantly comparing my SAT scores and extracurriculars to others to see my chances of getting into one of my top choices. I have built up this idea that getting into college would be easy, but now that i am staring it in the face, i have never been so worried. My SAT scores a good, but not good enough, I don't do enough things outside of school, I should have stayed in Key Club and Girl Scouts, my blog doesn't have enough readers for colleges to think my blog is impressive, my parents make enough to prevent me from getting an hefty financial aid package, but not enough for me to not have to worry about paying for an expensive private school tuition. I'm in the top 7.27% of my class so I don't have automatic admission to the University of Texas which accepts the top 7% of students from schools in Texas. My safety school just became less safe and all the other places I'm applying to are highly competitive.
My parents didn't go to college in the states, it's been about 8 years since my brother applied to college, our school counselor can only do so much, and almost all my friends are applying to places in Texas like UNT, Texas A&M, Texas Tech, etc. which is great! And I'm really excited for them, but it also means that they don't have to worry about the common app, or out of state tuition (which doesn't matter in my case because all the schools I like are private anyways), and most of those schools aren't highly competitive. It's strange because although we're all dealing with college applications, I feel kinda alone in this process. Of course, I have my family and school advisors to help me with this process, but they're not going through this process or experiencing what i'm experiencing.
So as I
cry hyperventilate finish my applications in the next few months, send some good thoughts my way. Ya girl just wants to get into a good college.